Don't Expect Me to Apologize

Good Afternoon Lovies. Happy Freyja Day!!! I hope you all have a fantastic long weekend; the weather forecast looks awesome for those who will be heading out camping, fishing or hitting cottage country. 

I admit, I miss all those fun activities but I would rather be here and close to my person, than way up north (in my favourite place) without him. It just wouldn't be the same. 

I am not going to make this a long blurb because honestly, most of the things I am feeling and want to say, are things I want to hold precious and close to my heart.... kind of like when people say the best of times are the ones no one knows about. 

It's that kind of deal!!!

I have this person in my life that is absolutely incredible. He makes me smile and laugh on my worst days, and guides me when things just get too foggy. I can reassure you this isn't one of those "OMG, I fell head over heels" for this person; because I don't believe in "falling" in love. 

"Falling" requires you to eventually get back up, no?

I am old enough to know when relationships first start, they are all about lust... not love. The "honeymoon" phase if you will. Sure, that's awesome, but what happens when that wears off??? This now begs the question... how long should you know somebody before you commit to it being just the two of you? 

IS THERE SUCH A THING???

I will admit, sexual chemistry is important in a relationship. Maybe that is the incorrect terminology... Intimacy is important; but let's say something happens, and even for a time, you cannot be sexually active? Take the sexual part out of it... What are you then??? Would or could you survive??? 

These are honest questions...

Would you last as a couple without it? I guess what I am trying to say is this... I AM with THAT person. The one who probably knows me better than I know myself, and vice versa. Too connected to fight over stupidness, well at least when my mental health isn't having a "day". Jealousy is nonexistent because we have a great dynamic, and it definitely wouldn't work with his line of work. LOL. 

Are we possessive??? Definitely, in the right kind of way. 

We are an ol school love based on decades of friendship that has seen each other battle the worst of the worst; but also seen some really good times. We don't care to reveal our relationship to the world because honestly, those in our lives who are near and dear, already know... While social media is just a cesspool of people who will always have an opinion for something they know nothing about. 

We like our privacy and I intend to keep it that way for as long as possible; and I won't apologize for not revealing it. All that matters is he knows I am completely his and I don't doubt him for a moment that he is completely mine... decades of trust, love, honour, respect and loyalty have proven this. I look forward to decades more.

~ Phoenix