Meandering Tales of a Wylde Child

  Hi Lovies. I hope you're having a great weekend. The weather is being rude, and my air conditioning can barely keep up... I cannot wait for the leaves to start changing and the fall be upon us.  I am soooo not a summer person!!! Mentally, I am struggling a bit; but probably not in the sense people are thinking. I have faced a lot in my 50 trips around the sun; some of it good, some of it amazing and some it not so great.  Currently, I am sitting between a couple of those positions, and it really sucks that for the first time in decades, this path is a solo one. I have mentioned that there have been quite a few deaths in my life recently; oddly enough, I have been handling them pretty good...  It's the "death" of those still living, that I am having difficulty accepting and moving on from. I had closed myself off to many people who have passed through my life, and have gotten pretty good at it. When they say, "you can't just cut people off"... as a Sagi...

Good Evening Lovies. I had a huge internal battle on IF I could write this blog today. I say "IF", because my own personal feelings on how everything ended up is a severe thorn in my side.  It is WAYYYYY to easy to place blame; but what will that do for the remaining family and loved ones??? Right now I am sooo frustrated, sad and feel completely useless.  I'm choking back tears over the loss of a childhood friend; a death that was entirely preventable. My heart breaks for his brother, who has suffered loss far more than most of us ~ both his parents and now his only sibling. I cannot imagine how he is coping.  Why does this always happen to the kindest souls??? I am going to explain WHY this death is hitting me in an awkward way. Remember that jab that the powers that be insisted on everyone getting for them to survive the "CORONAVIRUS" wait it's now "COVID-19"... Yah, THAT jab... Unfortunately, he was one of the ones who go the jab, It made him d...

  Hey Lovies. It is 10:30 PM EST, and I really felt I needed to post something about all these articles I have been seeing today and last night. MY HEART ACHES FOR THIS WORLD. I read an article where a grandmother, her daughter and 4 grandchildren are dead, thanks to the case of murder - suicide. My heart is breaking to the father who has been fighting in court to see his children since 2018. (EIGHT YEARS).  He was finally given a court order to have the children for 60 days, this summer. He was supposed to pick them up the day after they were found dead. How? How does a mother and grandmother become soooo vindictive that they would rather kill the children than allow their father to see them? It is absolutely sickening. Today, in the capital city of our country (Ottawa), there are two young boys (7 and 12 yrs of age) who were found deceased. A short time later, their father was found deceased in a burning vehicle. Authorities are calling it a double homicide-suicide. Who even...

Good Afternoon my Lovies. How was your weekend? I know, it is still going, but with the weather being nice, and festivals happening all around, did you get out to enjoy any of them?   As you are probably aware by now, I am very much an introvert. I don't do well in crowds; and I definitely cannot tolerate the heat. I keep my room at a nice temperature of 17C. The topic that is stuck in my head today is racism.  Yes, I am fully aware that people are going to say "You're a white girl, you have no idea"... and I am just going to ignore that statement the same way I have my entire life.  You know why? Simple... You haven't live my life, nor do you know anything about my Ancestors and what they have endured. So I kindly ask that you sit your ass down, and shut your ignorant mouth up!!! Before I even begin about the racism towards people's different "shade of wheat"...  REMEMBER THAT WOMEN HAVE BEEN OPPRESSED SINCE THE BEGINNING OF TIME!!! Now, let's g...

  Good Morning Lovies. I know it has been a bit since my last "confession", but I also needed a few days to gather my thoughts before I put them down on paper; so to speak.  This weekend was one to celebrate the men in our lives. Our fathers, husbands, brothers and sons... all of whom have earned the title of "dad", in one form or another.  Similar Mother's Day, this is a difficult one for me, but in a very different way. I spend the day reflecting on the father that raised me from the time I was 5 months old. He will always be my "Dad", and I will always be Daddy's Girl. I sent him a text wishing him a "Happy Father's Day".  (There is a reason it is in text). I carry much sadness on this day as well. I do not really hold anger anymore; simply because the angry is wasted on a despicable human that could not care less what her actions have caused, so it is simply a wasted energy I don't have to spare. I will NEVR give her the satis...

Good Morning Lovies. I hope you have a good day. My mental state is okay today; but that can change quickly as I am in quite the fibro flare these days... my legs feel like lead, and my feet feel like they are concrete blocks. If you have never saw me like this before, I look like a baby giraffe taking its first steps.  Sorry, it's better to laugh than cry, for me. Anyone with fibromyalgia or ANY disorder that gives you chronic pain (among a million other health issues), you know what I am talking about!! I am not going to sit here and bitch about the various levels of Fibro, but it IS progressive and deteriorating. It sucks because I was diagnosed with it in my late teens; something I've lived with for a good 35 years now. I guess what I am really getting at, is the amount of medications they push on you, and how much of a guinea pig I have been through the years. The biggest issue with me is that my liver doesn't function properly (through no fault of my own) and I have a...

Good Morning Lovies. I hope the day treats you well. It definitely feels like a Monday, and I have the blues. I have been finding it hard to sit down and write; not because there aren't things to write about... more like, there are things I'd rather not put in my blog because it's things we have to hear about every day. I'd like to keep my blog more about my own personal things or events around me that effect me. I've been spending the past week or so, really thinking about my health and what things AND people are good for me; and which I think I need to distance myself from. I have already made my circle as small as I thought it ever would be; now it seems I need to close the door to even more people... something I was NOT prepared to do.  It is weighing heavily on me right now. You know when you get so disappointed in yourself, you don't have the words to express it to anyone else; so you sit with it weighing on your heart and soul??? THAT'S where I am cur...

Good Evening Lovies. It's been a minute since I have taken the time to sit and write about myself and my life.  I still cannot grasp how quickly this year is flying by... are we seriously in the 6th month of this god awful year??? Okay. Okay, not everything has been tragic or disappointing, but I am really struggling with whether there were more positive than negative; probably because my mind is in a very dark space these days.  I am beginning to dislike myself for keeping everything inside. SOME WOULD CALL THIS PERSONAL GROWTH I know that swallowing things that I feel and need to say, is not just detrimental for my own health and well-being... it is dangerous for those closest to me!!! For people who haven't seen me in decades, or who have watched me through the decades and are still in my life... they KNOW how much I have changed, and the incredible personal growth I have worked extremely hard on. Today, and the past few days, feel like I have slipped backwards. I can see ...

Good Morning Lovies. This topic is kind of coming out of left field... I think you may understand a little more once I get further into it. My once beloved country Canada is in utter ruins, and I don't see it getting any better, any time soon. Our government has decided that the Bible is considered hate speech. I don't know where everyone is from who reads my blog... I mean, I know you are from all over the world; but you may not know much about what is happening here. Canada, like the United States is what we call a "Christian" country. This does NOT mean that every person needs to be a Christian, but it is the basis for many laws within our borders. The powers that be, are now saying that the views in the Bible on same-sex marriage is hate speech... this is ONE example they are using. Anti-abortion is another. This whole blurb is going to sound odd coming from me because I am a Seiðkona (or, if you prefer a Spákerling, or Vísendakona). I am a Norse Pagan Witch. You ...

This one is going to be a toughy to write about, because I have a very strong and unpopular opinion of this news story, but I feel the need to write this, because it is happening more and more, and it is absolutely devastating but unacceptable!!! Long story short, an Arizona woman, Andrea saw her husband, Nolan outside a bar with another woman, she opened fire, as the woman attempted to escape in her car, she was shot in the back of the head; but still managed to suffer non-life threatening injuries. Andrea proceeded to their home, at this point it has not been clarified whether Andrea and Nolan are still living together or separated, (Not that any of this should matter for what came next). Andrea arrived home and shot both their children in the head. She took photos of Austin, 10-yrs-old, and Andolan who was 2 years old as they lay there bleeding. She sent the photos to Nolan. Andrea then fatally shot herself. Both the incident, from the bar and where the home is located is less than ...

  Good Morning Lovies. How are you all on this fine Day of Freyja? It's only 10:30 in the morning, and the temperature is already above 20C; and I am not liking it. I'm too insulated for this crap. This morning I have pretty much one thought on my mind, I do NOT have what people would call a traditional family. I have my biological family who I have no contact with, other than my sister and aunt. I have my adopted family that I only speak to twice a year, (thanks to their incessive need to push religion on me and my siblings).  Then comes my famILY... FamILY is my TRUE family. The reason I use capitals for the last part is because I truly do love them. These are the people I CHOOSE to be my famILY... people who have shown me love when they didn't have to. Shown compassion, loyalty, trust and respect when they could have walked away at any time. These are people who defend me and my name when I am not around. People who absolutely deserve to have a seat at my table!!! The re...

Good Morning Lovies. Happy Freyja Day. It looks like we are headed into a rainy weekend here; not that I mind. I love rain, and it seems to ease my headaches when it rains for a while. I am going to jump right into the topic that is weighing on my mind right now... I want to know how anyone, in first world countries to third world countries are okay with grown as men legally allowed to marry little girls, as young as the age of 9. I don't care if you are pink, purple, black, white, brown, yellow, orange, etc... no child deserves to be subjected to that kind of life. PERIOD! WHAT KIND OF WORLD DO WE LIVE IN??? Have I fallen into the Twilight Zone or something? All the disgusting things happening around the world just don't make any sense to me. This has got to be a parallel universe, right?!!  I know we have all been demanding to see the Epstein Files, and have ALL the people on the list held accountable for their actions, regardless of their status on the world stage. We all wa...

  Us against the world… Like always… "Bonnie and Clyde, side by side If it’s you, I’ll ride or die Cross that line, I don’t mind You my wrong, you my right Bonnie and Clyde, we don’t hide Even when the world goes blind If we fall, we don’t cry We go down side by side Late nights, headlights on the dash No plan, just running from the past You don’t ask, you just move Like you already know the truth We don’t talk, we just feel Every scar, every deal You got pain I recognize I see fire in your eyes Yeah we dangerous, I know But I won’t let you go If it all goes cold We still stay in the smoke Bonnie and Clyde, side by side If it’s you, I’ll ride or die Cross that line, I don’t mind You my wrong, you my right Bonnie and Clyde, we don’t hide Even when the world goes blind If we fall, we don’t cry We go down side by side No trust but it’s still you Every loss leads me to you We break rules, we don’t bend Still I choose you again You don’t run when it’s dark You get closer, play your par...