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Don't Expect Me to Apologize

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Good Afternoon Lovies. Happy Freyja Day!!! I hope you all have a fantastic long weekend; the weather forecast looks awesome for those who will be heading out camping, fishing or hitting cottage country.  I admit, I miss all those fun activities but I would rather be here and close to my person, than way up north (in my favourite place) without him. It just wouldn't be the same.  I am not going to make this a long blurb because honestly, most of the things I am feeling and want to say, are things I want to hold precious and close to my heart.... kind of like when people say the best of times are the ones no one knows about.  It's that kind of deal!!! I have this person in my life that is absolutely incredible. He makes me smile and laugh on my worst days, and guides me when things just get too foggy. I can reassure you this isn't one of those "OMG, I fell head over heels" for this person; because I don't believe in "falling" in love.  "Falling...

Footloose & Fancy-Free

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Good Day Lovies. How are you this Thor's Day? I have to admit, I am in a fairly decent mood. The weather looks a bit dreary out, but we are looking at a decent long weekend...  I can't believe we are already at the "first official long weekend of summer". This usually meant, we'd be packing up and heading out to the cottage in Wasaga Beach...  Mind you, this was back in the 90s when the beach was still a fun time and we didn't have to deal with all these foreigners shitting (and I mean literally) on the public beaches.  Like how gross does society, or individuals have to be that they are literally using the beach like a litterbox??? It's truly disturbing!!! The 90s were a time when my babies could splashing in the clean water. Swimming, BBQs, nightly bonfires, quiet nights of sneaking off to skinny dip, and of course the star gazing!!! Ahhh to remember the times of being "footloose and free-free". We are now in 2026, and if I was the age I was in...

Not a Jackass Whisperer

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Good Morning Lovies. How are you today? I am going to straight up admit that I am not someone who watches the daily news. Not because of lack of concern for the world and our people; but for my own sanity. No, my head isn't buried in the sand!!! I find that our world has gone crazy. People talk about the world being blue or red... Black vs white. Christian vs every other religion... Its sickening!!! The world is going in reverse and it is turning my stomach.  What chance do our children, grandchildren and future generations have if we do not stand up and correct what has gone awry??? I know people are blaming the current people who are running the government, but let's be real... our governments have been failing us for decades; the ones in charge now are just continuing what was already in place. I guess my biggest question is how did we as citizens allow this to go on for this long??? We cannot ignore the fact that we the people made some shady choices, and we are partially t...

Today I Am Grateful

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Good Morning Lovies. Happy Sunday Funday. Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers out there. I'd also like to take a moment to recognize all the fathers that take on both roles... Yes, I am fully aware they have their own day in June; but, I also acknowledge mothers on that day as well. If you're a single parent, you know EXACTLY why I am posting this!!!  I, myself, am a single mother (to grown children, who have their on children now), and sometimes not a very good one; although my children (for the most part) do not hold it against me.  I am blessed with two amazing children, but alas, the generational curse of mother/daughter turmoil continues... maybe one day it will resolve, maybe not. I DO wish her a Happy Mother's Day all the same. As I have written yesterday, I don't really have a great relationship with my (adopted) mom, and the one with my incubator is nonexistent; but that doesn't mean I don't have women to celebrate today.  I want to acknowledge my...

Mum's (NOT) the Word

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  I am back for a second entry today. I am not sure how many people know about this day and what it represents.  The second Saturday (the Saturday right before Mother's Day, here in Canada and the USA), is the day dedicated to Birth Mothers. I don't think it is a well known fact, but I could be wrong. I apologize if I've had my head in the sand, and this is known everywhere. This could be a beautiful thing for those mothers who legitimately gave up their children with all the love in their hearts, knowing they could not provide what their child needed; whatever the reasoning is.  I am NOT judging anyone and their circumstances. I do NOT know their story, and even if I did, it isn't my story to tell; and who am I to say they were right or wrong in their decision. I hope for all involved, it was a decision that everyone could live with. I, however, was not one of those fortunate people!!! I am an adoptee. I have my mother and my father, things may not be perfect; my relat...

When You're Stuck in Your Head....

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  Hi everyone. It's Caturday. I woke up fairly early this morning, but didn't want to crawl out of bed for obvious reasons. My head and my heart battled it out... in the end, my bladder won!!! I spent a little time listening to songs that reminded me of him; wished him a great feast in Valhalla and here I sit, pondering what my next words are going to be. I am not sure what is going to spill onto this page today; but I DO know I didn't want to spend the day wallowing in my grief. I keep saying in his death he showed me how to live... so maybe I should actually do that on the anniversary of days like today too, no? Laugh if you must, but I threw on some ABBA, and the funniest thing happened; definitely lightened up my mood. The cats decided they were going to sit in front of the TV and follow the little light that was flying back and forth across the screen. They did this for over 20 minutes... MAN. I needed that giggle!!! Now that the cats have brought me out of the cloud I...

Friday's Scars

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  Good Afternoon Lovies. The weekend is upon us, for those of you who love the outdoors, I hope the weather cooperates with your plans. Me? This weekend represents a lot of heartache, so for it to be dreary and stormy would be the ideal weather.  If it could only be like it is in comic strips where the cloud is above one person's head, I'd take it. Know what I mean??? Today is my (adopted) sister's birthday. I sent a text this morning, wishing her well. I haven't really spoken to her since the end of February. You could say that we are not exactly a close knit family; for obvious reasons.  I feel bad because we all seem to be coping with health issues, and none of us can really offer support for the other. I mean, we could, but I am tired of being the pillar for everyone and refuse to do it anymore.  It's odd how the black sheep is ALWAYS the one that carries the burden of everyone's woes, isn't it??? I am not going to draw out my medical things today; howev...

Let You Down

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  Good Afternoon Lovies. How goes it? It's a fairly quiet Wednesday,  but the day is still young. Universe, don't get it twisted... I'm not trying to manifest anything LOL. My topic today is how some days I really feel like I'm a failure... a disappointment to people. I don't know if that's a natural feeling for all adoptees; but it's a burden I've carried since childhood. I was 5 months old, when my incubator (I refuse to call her my mother because she never earned that privilege), abandoned me ~ I don't care what others say, it IS different for everyone, for me, it left me feeling unworthy, rejected and with severe abandonment issues when I got older. I grew up in luxury. Finances were never an issue. I got the great private school education; which I am very grateful for, but there were also major downfalls. Sure, I was and always will be "Daddy's girl". My adopted dad and I generally had a great relationship; the only things that hin...

When Fear Takes Over...

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  Good Afternoon Lovies.  I hope the day has found you well; for those who have ailments, I send out positive, healing vibes... may you all heal quickly. Today, I am going to write a lil about my mentality the past few days. My readers and followers from previous blogs know that I do not shy away from difficult topics and am more than willing to expose my vulnerabilities if it can even help one person feel that they are not alone in this crazy ass world. In many ways I find social media was a great invention; an excellent way to keep family and friends in contact with each other, especially those that are long distance.  At the same time, I think social media has destroyed quite a bit.  I know, this all seems like babbling, but I'm getting to my point, I promise.... There are certain platforms where you can pretty much expose your entire life on. I understand how sweet and cute it is to post all about your life, your relationships, your woes, great times and even bri...

Dawn of a New Day

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  Good afternoon Lovies. I hope the day finds you well.  I have decided to start another blog, as my other one has more than 2 years worth of entries. Here is the link to my other blog, please check it out as I settle into my new one here... My Previous Blog (2023 - 2026) I have several things on my mind, and I will get to them, but right now I just wanted you all to know I haven't vanished. It's a decent day outside today considering where we live and the time of year, no complaints there. I seem to be one of the few who likes the cooler weather. Is it just me, or are more couples/partners/spouses the polar opposite when it comes to the temperature? We always joke that I love my bedroom as cold as a walk-in freezer (meat locker, if you will)... Most prefer hot or really warm... UGH!!! Dead of winter, double digits below zero and I have the windows open to the point that I've woken up to snow on my bed. LOL I am gonna sign off for now, but I'll be back in a few to start...