Sweet Dreams, Beautiful Nightmare

 

Good Morning Lovies. How are you all on this fine Day of Freyja? It's only 10:30 in the morning, and the temperature is already above 20C; and I am not liking it. I'm too insulated for this crap.

This morning I have pretty much one thought on my mind, I do NOT have what people would call a traditional family. I have my biological family who I have no contact with, other than my sister and aunt. I have my adopted family that I only speak to twice a year, (thanks to their incessive need to push religion on me and my siblings). 

Then comes my famILY...

FamILY is my TRUE family. The reason I use capitals for the last part is because I truly do love them. These are the people I CHOOSE to be my famILY... people who have shown me love when they didn't have to. Shown compassion, loyalty, trust and respect when they could have walked away at any time. These are people who defend me and my name when I am not around. People who absolutely deserve to have a seat at my table!!!

The reason I say all that is because I am a deathly loyal person. My famILY is very small, but I would fight anyone who disrespects, hurts or does anything to slight them in ANY way. This is where the sweet dreams and beautiful nightmare comes about...

I am, the sweetest person. I truly am. I would help anyone out. I would give you the shirt off my back. If we were both starving and I found food, I would give it to you first. I am that type of person (Some call it s a "flaw"). I do this sometimes to the point of allowing people to walk all over me... let's just say, I used to.

People are now learning that what comes with being the sweet dream is the beautiful nightmare. I no longer allow people to use me. I thank the people around me for helping me keep my backbone; reminding me that when I DO stand tall, I do NOT need to feel guilty for it. I don't know what it is, but when it comes to people hurting me... I fluff it off more often than I should; but I NEVER give an inch when it comes to my circle and my famILY. 

HELL HATH NO FURY!!!

I know that my man, my Brothers, my Sisters, my Son, my Daughter, and my Mama have mouths of their own, and will speak their mind; not tolerating bullshit. I can't let it slide. When I see any one of them upset, I am going to make you hurt.... hurt in ways you cannot imagine. Don't get it twisted. This isn't a threat. I know better than to make those. This is just a friendly reminder from the sweeter side to refresh your memory

DON'T FUCK WITH MY FAMILY!!!

~ Phoenix