When Fear Takes Over...

 

Good Afternoon Lovies.  I hope the day has found you well; for those who have ailments, I send out positive, healing vibes... may you all heal quickly.

Today, I am going to write a lil about my mentality the past few days. My readers and followers from previous blogs know that I do not shy away from difficult topics and am more than willing to expose my vulnerabilities if it can even help one person feel that they are not alone in this crazy ass world.

In many ways I find social media was a great invention; an excellent way to keep family and friends in contact with each other, especially those that are long distance. 

At the same time, I think social media has destroyed quite a bit.  I know, this all seems like babbling, but I'm getting to my point, I promise....

There are certain platforms where you can pretty much expose your entire life on. I understand how sweet and cute it is to post all about your life, your relationships, your woes, great times and even bring your battles. I used to be the same. I loved others knowing I was with someone, and all the fun things we did; even spewed the bad times. I eventually grew up.

I'm at the stage now where I don't care for people to know the intricate details about my life. Sure, my close friends know the details but it's not sprawled all over the place like it is national news... this is where people seem to get things twisted. You have family (blood), family (tribe), friends, buddies and acquaintances. If you're sharing with all of these individuals,  you're leaving yourself open for pain and deceit.... TRUST ME!!!

You might be asking what is bringing all this on???

I continuously see something on social media that I know is absolutely NOT true; most of the time, I choose to ignore it, but every once in a while I get triggered and just wanna flip tables. Normally I would, to be perfectly honest. For some odd reason, the last time, it triggered me, but I didn't react the way I normally would.

(I know this probably isn't making a lot of sense, but it was a HUGE feat for my mental health, but also a clear sign of how social media can royally fuck with people's lives and relationships).

Let's just say that fear ALMOST won and I would've spiraled, but I somehow found the strength to fight back... Tough battle, but IYKYK.

~ Phoenix